Ever feel like you made a mistake but don't feel bad for it? Ever feel like you lost your morals because you can't control yourself anymore? What if you can't remember what is right and what is wrong just because you feel like your life is to hard to take?
I'm not asking for much; just happiness. When will the pain stop? When will the tears cease to flow? I don't even care about him; just what he is doing to me. How much torture..how much more will I have to endure? When will I be left alone? When will G-d say, "now you can move on, it's okay. Now I will grant you happiness."
I can't stand the pain anymore. I feel like it's never going to go away.
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I'm still grappling with the realization that this life is not an easy one... It's something that one just has to accept; until then you'll always be seeking a type of happiness that is reserved for the afterlife. I have to rise above it and appreciate the struggle instead of waiting for it to end...
No situation in life is permanent. The way of the world is that things change. Though now you feel like you are trapped and that things just keep getting worse and darker...there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It is at the darkest of moments, that the little light starts breaking through. You have gone through more than enough and I hope this was the dark before sunrise. Hope the sun starts peeking through the clouds TODAY!!
bas~melech - i am feeling quite similarly. I know life isn't easy, but I just had enough of pain. I need a band-aid, at least...
halfshared - Hopefully this is not permanent! I know it isn't. But I'm maxed out. Completely. I just want to move on with life and I can't. Amen- I hope your bracha comes true.
What to do when you don't even care anymore?? :(
What don't you care about?
Anything :(
Morals, beliefs, almost can't differentiate right from wrong anymore. What has happened to me?
I don't believe that you don't care anymore. You still hold on to your morals and beliefs. It may just be that you feel more passive about life, as if you threw up your hands and said "that's it, I'm not in control and I'm going to sit here and let fate overtake me". But deep down, there is that strong you within that when push comes to shove, will stand up for what you believe is right. What others do is not in your hands, only you can fix yourself. Just stay strong and hold on...
I can use a very sturdy railing right about now...
Sometimes the pain of life just gets so overwhelming, and it truly is a struggle to keep going and not give in to apathy and depression. G-d knows I struggle too...
But I also don't believe that you don't care about anything anymore. If you truly didn't care, it wouldn't bother you that you're struggling.
"When you're at the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."
[throws psyched a rope]
(((hugs)))
scraps - thanks... rope..railings...it's all good!
:-( I'm so sorry psyched...I can't even imagine what you must be going through now. I think halfshared is right...I've also had times when I thought I didn't care so much about right and wrong, but when push comes to shove, there's a strength inside you that wins out. I hope this passes very soon...[Can you make it to a sunny beach anytime soon? I think you need it :-)]
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