Sad Update

With tearstained eyes, and though I despise sharing bad news, I am forced to inform you all that unfortunately my mom's friend lost her battle to cancer just two days ago. Anyone that was saying Tehillim for her is so appreciated. Whoever even took the time to read her blog means the world to all those who knew her. She was an incredible person who fought till the very end, and I like to believe she is in a much better place now, no more suffering, no more pain.

Cheryl knew I was going through a divorce, but unfortunately she passed away before we could tell her the good news that it was over. I realize, though, that she knows it now. She knows it all.

May we all only share good news, now and forever.

~ Psyched

It Shouldn't Matter When....

My heart was beating; my nerves were shot
My stuff was finally coming – I’ve waited a whole lot.
Almost 7 months later, I couldn’t wait
After so much unnecessary and constant debate.
I couldn’t wait to see my things again,
The boxes finally arrived, but then…

Empty shoeboxes, crushed dishes,
Crumpled paper towels, shattered wishes.
Dusty Tupperware, meaningless things
Wondered how I ever wore those rings.
None of the things I wanted were there,
Not one item of silver or crystal – how unfair.

I will never see my Grandmother’s dishes again,
I will never hold my silver lighter in my hands when I light candles.
I will never be able to put money into the tzedakah box from my friends.
I will never be able to look at the beautiful things I once had.

The list can continue but why bother?
It shouldn’t matter when I have my mother and father.
It shouldn’t matter when I have my sisters and brothers,
My grandparents, aunts, uncles and so many others.
Cousins, friends, people who love me,
Those who are happy that he set me free.

For it’s the things that matter, the ones that will remain.
Those who have been there for me throughout all of my pain.
Items will always come and go,
But at the end of the day…..I have more to show.