Never Say Never

"No matter what," she said, "No one will ever love you like me."

"I'll never hurt you," he said.

"I'll never leave you," he said.

"We'll always help you," they said.

"You know we love you," they said.

"We'll never forget about you," they said.

"We'll never stop being there," they said.


But they were wrong. My ex-husband hurt me. He left me. My friends and family didn't always help. My ex-husband's family didn't love me. My friends forgot about me. They stopped being there.

She was the only one who kept her word. She told me this before I got married. I was infatuated with my ex-husband and I didn't believe her. But she was right. No one will ever love me like her.

That person is my mother.

Rejection

Rejection is the worst feeling in the world. I know, because I feel it on a regular basis.

I've never felt good enough for anything.

I couldn't even keep a marriage together.

I'm not good enough at work. It's more fun to push me around. I think they enjoy it.

Basically, I mean nothing. You'd think after all this time, I'd be immune to it all.

But I'm not.

It still hurts.

Badly.

All the time.

Now, I can't even date.

Will

it

ever

end?