Wednesday, October 17, 2007

I Used To Be Me

I used to be someone carefree;
I used to be me.

I look in the mirror and trace
The reflection that stares me back in the face.
So many would agree;
I used to be me.

When I was a little girl
Mommy told me I was a precious “pearl”
I would constantly smile with glee;
I used to be me.

Then one day I was thrilled,
Never felt so fulfilled.
With love greater than the sea,
He got down on one knee.
I guarantee;
I used to be me.

Beaming in pride,
I was a beautiful bride.

..But then I was denied
And he constantly lied
I tried and I tried
And I frequently cried
But this only made him cease to provide.
Sooner than later, the love did subside.

Now alone I reside
I feel empty inside.
And I only pray: God, give me the key;
To be me.

4 comments:

Scraps said...

That is so, so hard. It's an awful feeling to feel like you're a different person than you used to be, and wishing you could find that other self again but not knowing where to start.

I hope Hashem sends you the help you're asking for. You deserve it.

psyched said...

Thank you so much for the bracha - it means so much to me.

I wish the same for you.

halfshared said...

This poem made me so sad :( I hope you find yourself and the happiness you so deserve soon enough. May you always feel Hashems love for you, through thick and thin.

psyched said...

AMEN! Thanks!!!